Dear Life,

Dear Beathan,

Why can't you be good to people? What makes you judge who deserves happiness, and those who do not? How do you make that decision? There are really great people out there you know...and they don't deserve it.

Why do Father's not love their daughters? A Father shouldn't tell his daughter that it's her fault for their lack of love. He shouldn't tell her that she doesn't make time, when he's the one who fails to answer the countless calls. Fathers shouldn't play favorites. Whether it be the youngest, or the eldest or the son. He should love equally, and totally each one the same. But that's not the case though is it Beathan.

Parents in general shouldn't play sides, one shouldn't be placed higher then the other on the pedestal. There shouldn't have to contest on whether "they love me more" or "they like me better". Children shouldn't have to battle for the crown of the family favorite, the one the holds the power.

You know what I mean right Beathan? How the one child would be blamed for everything because others is unable to do any wrong. It's common, you know? To see family break apart, for the way they were behaving. It's sad really, but hey...that's your call.

Why do our emotions control everything we do. Or how they effect the decisions me make.I find emotions tend to hold to much power. To the point of physical illness, were they take on a palpable matter. It's almost as if the emotion discomfort the soul experiences becomes the body's disease. Tearing us through inside out.

I don't understand, why it becomes so important. Why these feelings we feel, this prevalent emotions are the fuel we thrive on, on which we base all our devotions. Ugh. Please help me understand Beathan. Don't we deserve even a small explaination.